Okay, since you keep raising this issue in public, I shall answer to you in public. There's no point in sending off little stings in my direction every time this is mentioned. I got your message loud and clearly when you told it to me the first time. I remember you being very clear about it.
I know you're holding a grudge against me because of the EF11 DVD. I agree things went very wrong - and unfortunately I realized much too late how important this particular DVD is to you.
I was focussed on getting the con running, and the new shows coming - that always had a priority for me. And eventually, the EF11 DVD went down further my list of priorities, as it was superceded by shows that got WAY more intention - and interest for an old show like that went down. Yes, that's to a large degree my own mistake. (Other factors contributed to it ... like, I didn't get cleaned up fiddle recordings until EF14 (!) - and just like yours, my motivation was already very low by then.)
I know it's not going to turn back the clock, but I am very sorry for this. I was totally blind regarding your feelings in this issue, for many years. And realizing it makes me feel like a complete idiot about this whole thing.
And I inadvertedly made it worse. Many comments from you made me think you no longer cared about the pawpet show. That's why I handed the intermission videos to people who asked for them to put on youtube. I honestly thought you wouldn't give a damn, since you were not planning to work on the pawpetshow any more anyways since the EF11 disappointment I caused.
So, turns out I was wrong, and your outrage about it hit me totally by surprise - all my presumtions about the situation were apparently wrong. Again - I totally didn't see it, while I totally should have.
I ended up in a situation where I was so panically afraid to bring up the issue, that I'd rather not talk about it with you - I was fearing the confrontation.
Which made it even worse.
Seeing this whole thing from your perspektive, I can understand why you are frustrated. And I also understand that it killed your motivation. I think I have kinda understood the situation by now.
And I feel very miserable about it. And I have no idea how to get out of it.
If it's your decision to no never work on a pawpetshow video again except for taping and transmitting it on ef-prime, I accept that.
However, I am totally willing to start over, and totally change the way we have approached pawpetshow DVDs in the past. Including taking myself out of the equasion. I have realized that I just don't have the skills and time to efficiently do my part of the job - and that I've been lying to myself and everybody else for years by pretending I do.
